Just ranting here for once 'cause I don't want to rant on Facebook. ^ ^


I. Don't. Know. What. To. Do. With. My. Life.

I don't know what to study in college.

I don't know what career I eventually might like to have.

I don't know what job I want to try and get now.




All I can think is: "Give me some office work with filing or something and I'll be happy."
But I don't know how to go about doing that.


I'm so not prepared for anything....but I want to be.


At least there's a local job connection thing I need to e-mail to set up an appointment for a bit of help.

Gah! I feel so...I don't know....useless? Hopeless? I dunno.

I'm not a people-person.
I'm not 100% certain I want to do something in science.
I've been working with animals for over 7 years, but I'm having doubts lately as to whether or not that's something I want to keep doing.
I can't say I want to do solid English courses.
I don't want to teach.
I don't want to write non-fiction.

I just don't know!


I DO know that I'd like to take some English courses (not for a solid English degree, but to tidy up my writing/learn/re-learn stuff). I wouldn't mind doing another art class. I'd love to work somewhere around horses...
I wouldn't be opposed to doing a drama class.
But all of this is more fun stuff. I don't know how to incorporate it all into something that may actually matter and sustain me.

Hhnnn.

As Mum and I discussed, I need to contact the job connection thing and hopefully that will start a snow-ball effect. All it should take is one big push to get everything rolling.
I just need to do something outside of the house and meet people.
I need some pals nearer to me to hang with and I wanna start searching for the guy God's got picked out for me!


Life--Y U NO EASY?!





:endrant:

If you made it this far...you deserve...well, something. I don't know, but something.

How about a hug?